A recurrent theme

A recurrent theme

in my mind,

your hands through my hair,

my hands on your skin,

your hands,

your fingers,

your ring,

that is mine,

in my mind

this summer.

Your body pulling my body close,

your touch warming my skin,

my legs ,

your legs,

our legs,

together

a monster,

in his mind.

Wrapping my legs around you,

my fingers around yours,

my lips 

around your lips,

your eyes staring into mine,

my eyes looking back at yours,

searching ...

for an answer.

Hearing it 

from my heart beat,

knowing  it

from your heart beat.

There is no world 

outside this world,

for this moment in time,

there in no existence of time

but slow motion

in this infinite space,

that breaths 

in this embrace.

And than just words;

that reveal your intelligence

and you real intentions,

that you have been denying

for for ever ago:

you don´t say : Don´t go !

you say : Stay !

a recurrent theme,

in my mind,

you and I .

A recurrent theme,

in my mind .

You,

in my mind,

recurrent theme.

Recurrent,

all time long.

Replay,

recurrent,

theme,

you.

My heart´s longing - Oh my !

My heart´s longing - Oh my !

My heart´s longing for you ,

but my mind won´t let me go;

with nothing else on me

I would run up to your door.

Today I walked passed you 

but we stopped to say "Hello".

We did what we had to 

not to let the others know. 

As fair taint reveals ,

there´s no place to hide,

the colors of my cheeks 

show how I feel inside

I gushed and blushed , Oh my !

My heart´s longing for you ,

but my mind won´t let me go;

with nothing else on me

I would run up to your door.

I searched for a smile though,

you were calm and seemed so tall.

It has been a while now ,

that I had sworn I´d let you go.

"Once bitten twice shy "is 

how you told me no/so.

I'm never wrong,

I´m heartless and strong

Told to learn to grow so 

learnt to put on this show

but I shake and cry inside...

Oh my!

I had so much to tell you 

but the nerves aren´t kind with time.

One step brings us closer ,

just a few leaves us behind.

My heart´s longing for you ,

but my mind won´t let me go;

with nothing else on me

I would run up to your door.

This chapter seemed over

though I stalk you all the time.

I´m guilty of lying,

the truth seems too unkind.

So what I saw in your eyes 

forced my mind to push rewind :

those nights in the dark,

two bodies that spark,

feeding on words,

bleeding in silence,

then our kiss turned into sin.

I had to leave or I could stay,

(to win)

when I was just wishing to run away...

My heart´s longing for you ,

but my mind won´t let me go;

with nothing else on me , now

I would run up to your door.

Will you open up that door?

My guess is no.

Will you welcome me once more?

My guess is not for sure.

Will you pretend that to this story

there has already been an end?

I can´t.

...Oh my !